the guy i knew as cowboy...

dude....


when i first met jason he was simply cowboy.. he and nick were a couple, and as much i love nick, i really didnt care for jason...


and as much as he tried to be my friend i wasnt having it.. i was polite.. and friendly enough.. just not interested in his friendship.. i avoided him and hoped that he would figure it out.. nope.. i saw him twice last year.. at the rally for gay marriage and again later in the year (prolly late november or early december) in front of my apartment.. apparently he was friends with a few of my neighbors... he saw me before i could disappear, and well that was 15 minutes of my life i knew id never get back...


cowboy lived fast... recently he was homeless.. i know, right? i didnt even know.. i hadnt really thought about him since nick came to see me in april...


i learned today that jason was fatally beaten in a fight near a homeless camp not far from my apartment last week..
i say fatally cause hes in a coma and not expected to live... he has died from his injuries... rest. in. peace..
there was a vigil for him last night.. i didnt go.. i had plans... fail..


fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.fail.failure..


i prolly should call nick..


boys.dont.cry.


peace be with you jason.. cowboy.. 


~ david

rocco grimaldi is holier than thou...

dude..

would you want this dude on your team? in your locker room?
not me.. i prolly wouldnt quit, but be damn sure id demand ask for a trade if he showed up..
if i was closeted, id stay in there till he disappeared.. if i was out, id be all up in his grill every time he said or did anything that devalued or dehumanized lgbt people.. believe it..

i think that rocco grimaldi is gonna have to grow up fast.. the world of professional sports is not the tight hyper religious private school bubble hes used too.. sure, he'll find allies on some benches, tim tebow, hello? and there are plenty of nhlers who are born again and rather public about it.. but even the anaheim ducks took a pass on this orange county native son.. fail!

if his born-again christian faith includes the mandatory moralizing, open contempt for others who do not share his faith and values, and the god hates fags rhetoric that has become standard fare for hyper religious professional athletes he cant be a vocal recruiter for his faith without being a distraction in the locker room..  watch out sean avery.. jesus is coming and rocco grimaldi is holier than you... ooooooooooo! fail!

his faith seems kinda narcissistic to me.. [bible verses sewn onto his tie and shoes?] he strikes me as the archetype small kid  (born again of course) with the giant truck that goes out of his way to wave his faith in everyones faces as a means to compensate for his own insecurities... athletically gifted and even popular, well educated to a degree, this archetype complains the loudest when lgbt anything is accepted or even tolerated in whatever team/school/program/community he happens to be part of...

take a look at the gay short film oh beautiful... part two is here..

im not surprised that he fell to the second round of the draft.. hes little, only 5'
6", and speedy or not, the average size of an nhl defenseman is 6'4" 240 lbs.. i seriously doubt jesus is gonna take an open-ice hip check or shoulder to the head shot for this kid... more than maybe once...

its been a good year so far for lgbt athletes and our allies.. people like sean avery, brent sopel, steve nash and groups like g-force sports are making real progress toward creating a safe environment for us in sports... even the san francisco giants and the chicago cubs created its get better videos....

and now rocco grimaldi gets drafted.... fail..

in my opinion this two steps forward, one step back...

~ cheers.... david

summer, it turns me upside-down...

dude..

tuesday, june 21, 2011..

first day of summer.. 12 hours of daylight...

72°F and sunny... its magic...

the girls are crying.. the boys are masturbating!

and the nhl is handing out its annual awards... yawn..

~ cheers... david

memorial day 2011..

dude....


memorial day is a united states federal holiday observed on the last monday of may.. formerly known as decoration day, it commemorates u.s. service members who died while in the military service.. first enacted by formerly enslaved african-americans to honor union soldiers of the american civil war – it was extended after world war one to honor americans who have died in all wars..
~ wikipedia

four score and seven years ago our fathers brought forth on this continent, a new nation, conceived in liberty, and dedicated to the proposition that all men are created equal..

now we are engaged in a great civil war, testing whether that nation, or any nation so conceived and so dedicated, can long endure.. we are met on a great battle-field of that war.. we have come to dedicate a portion of that field, as a final resting place for those who here gave their lives that the nation might live.. it is altogether fitting and proper that we should do this..

but, in a larger sense, we can not dedicate -- we can not consecrate -- we can not hallow -- this ground.. the brave men, living and dead, who struggled here, have consecrated it, far above our poor power to add or detract.. the world will little note, nor long remember what we say here, but it can never forget what they did here.. it is for us the living, rather, to be dedicated here to the unfinished work which they who fought here have thus far so nobly advanced.. it is rather for us to be here dedicated to the great task remaining before us -- that from these honored dead we take increased devotion to that cause for which they gave the last full measure of devotion -- that we here highly resolve that these dead shall not have died in vain -- that this nation, under god, shall have a new birth of freedom -- and that government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the earth..

~ Abraham Lincoln

for all those american service members who have died in the service of our country, i thank you... i honor you... always..

i pray for all those still at war... i pray that we find a way to end war, before it ends all of us... 

i pray.. i... i.. sing...

ahem.. just sing.. 

just sing something..

you mother fuckers youll sing someday..

boys.dont.cry..

sing for the peace of the world... 

~ cheers... david

always know where your towel is...

dude...

the hitchhikers guide to the galaxy has this to say about towels....

do you know where your towel is? 


~ cheers... david